Sheer PANIC

Yep, that's what happened to me last night.  Tim was still at work and I was packing.  My mind started thinking about all these things...how was I going to exchange my money?, what if the school doesn't pick me up at the airport?, what if I can't access my ticket home?, what if I loose my passport, why am I doing this?, why did I choose 5 weeks?, two weeks would have been plenty....and on and on and on.  I just simply could not stop my mind.  I was all shaky and had a shallow clavicle breathing pattern, which made me panic even more because I couldn't get enough air (in my mind at least).  Then the breathing was annoying because I started thinking, "I'm an SLP.  I've been through voice therapy for this.  I should not how to stop breathing like this." (I didn't start doing any of the techniques to change it though, even though sometimes I do them around the loft just because they are so funny-my brain was not working) I emailed Tim and his words of advice, "Go get a drink."  Nothing else.  That was it.  However, this made me laugh and relax and the panic subsided and now I'm back to nervous but excited.

Rita emailed me last night.  She had to cancel her trip due to some medical concerns with her husband.  He is okay but she needs to be here with him.  She said she will just have to read my blog and be green with envy.  

We had breakfast with my dad this morning.  He found a great mexican place that has fabulous breakfast for cheap. After a while, I was able to ignore the bars on the window.  We will definitely start going there.  Dad and I took our pic in front of the sign to document my "see-you-in-August" breakfast.  The sign looks great even though he didn't think it would show up.  I was a little disappointed that the barred windows didn't show though.  I'll post it at a different time.  I need to finish up some last minute details right now.

Tim and I leave for the airport in a bit.  Being in Nicaragua with him will put me at ease and into travel mode, I'm sure.

Next post will be from Nicaragua!